I started logging again on Sunday. Sunday's logs weren't all filled out, but I was diligent about it yesterday. For the first time in a very, very long time, I had an entire day of blood sugars and food on paper.

It felt good enough that I continued this morning (insert uncontrollable sarcastic laughing here). OK so it's not that bad. I am a bit nervous, though, about how long it will last. The logging, I mean; not the laughter.

My logging effort has everything to do with the pump. I'm still not 100% sure I want to do it, but I'm definitely leaning more toward it every day. I know that if I'm going to do the pump I can't go into it blind. I need to be more in tune with what my body goes through, how I react to certain carbs, how I react to insulin, etc., etc. Since I can't even start the let's-get-Michelle-a-pump campaign until after the first of the year for insurance reasons this is going to be a great time for me to gather some information. Hopefully then I won't have to spend "extra" time figuring this all out in January once my endo and I are deeper into the process.

I did some reading through the new insurance company's Web site yesterday. Turns out my logging decision was a good one because part of the process of getting a pump involves some proof that you need one. I'll be happy to hand over to my endo all blood sugar logs complete with readings below 60 and over 225, in addition to my last two A1C readings of 9 and 7.8.

If nothing else, if I wind up choosing not to go on the pump, at least I'll have started myself on a process that I really need to do anyway. And I suppose I'm fine with that.