Last week's numbers decided to soar back into the 280-330 range. My averages bumped from 156 to 188. And I really have no idea why.

My Lantus is up two units by now. I'm aggressively bolusing for food, which so far hasn't kicked me in the butt too hard. But I'm still not seeing the kind of rapid drops that I'd like to. At least the 300's are out the door though.

I'm just so frustrated with these bouncing numbers lately. It goes from bad to worse at the drop of a hat. No explanations, no cause. Just random weeks of resistance and soaring numbers.

I know that a major part of the problem is that my schedule is so varied day to day. Some days I can eat a decent three meals. And some days, I go hours upon hours without anything but a granola bar to tide me over. My blood sugar checks are all over the place. I don't check before dinner most nights. I skip afternoon checks because I'm in class or working. It's driving me crazy to feel so out of control.

I'm still getting nauseous. I even woke up at 5:30am with horrible nausea and a bout of chills. I'm hopeful that it's from the antibiotics that I was on for the urinary tract infection last week, but I won't know until I'm off them on Thursday. I have no idea what else it might be, so I really NEED it to be the antibiotics. I can't think of anything else that has changed. Unfortunately, my blood work isn't back yet either so I can't rule out anything internal.

Overall, I'm not feeling 100% anyway. Even if I wasn't nauseous. The yeast infection that I've had off and on for months is still there. Multiple treatments, slight relief. I feel like the only way to get it under control is to get of the Accutane and then get my blood sugars under control.

I've been having pelvic pain again, which is extremely frustrating. Although this could be from the urinary tract infection or the yeast infection, it feels more like the pain that I would get prior to my endometriosis surgery. It's a cramping type of pain, usually lasts about ten days before my period. We'll see how that continues to go. Even if it doesn't clear up, I don't have time or energy to go back into the gynecologist until May. I just can't take it anymore.

My skin is going back and forth with the breakouts. Sometimes it looks much improved, and sometimes (like today) I feel like I'm having major setbacks. I'm even more frustrated by that because I started the spiro last week so I was hoping that I would see at least some improvement or at least no worse. But here we are. On top of that, I think I'm starting to see a few spiro side effects (major thirst, lack of motivation) but it's tough to say with everything else going on.

I'd gotten off a lot of my supplements when I started Accutane. I didn't want to overload my body, nor did I want to hassle with it all anymore. I just needed a break. After everything that's happened lately, I'm back on my regimen...trying hard to stay disciplined.

I'm taking a whole list of pills: vitamins C, D, and E, 5HTP, nystatin, acidophilus, magnesium, and iron. I'm also still loading up on cranberry pills. I really hope all those in combination start to help soon. I'm missing classes, not sleeping, oversleeping, upset, not eating, overeating. You name it I'm doing it.

I just cannot wait to be off the Accutane. My life will be so much better without it, not only because of the clearer skin but because of the lack of side effects. Only 48 more days, luckily. I cannot even believe it! Until then, I just have to keep pushing.