The past week has been terrible on my blood sugars. I'm scared that I have/had another ovarian cyst. It seems to be pointing in that direction, or else my insulin and whole life has gone bad.

For about a week, my blood sugars have been high to no avail (well, about 3 numbers below 185 in 5 days). I've been stuck in the 200-260 range and I'm incredibly frustrated. Because it seems like there is nothing that I can do about it.

I've used extra Humalog and Lantus the last few days, but still nothing except for a random drop to 121 Friday that soared back to the 200's within a few hours. I've worked out several times this week, which usually causes a decided drop for a little while. And I've tried to watch my food intake by avoiding "bad" foods and relying on the foods I know don't prove a challenge to my averages.

But by yesterday afternoon (after the rise from the 121), I was completely fed up. If I do everything right but still can't get the numbers down, what exactly is the point in trying? If it is the cyst, I know there is nothing that I can do except keep increasing my insulin until I either see a drop or the cyst disappears.

My reasoning for the cyst is because I've had plenty of symptoms that remind me of last April when I had a hemorrhagic cyst that ruptured. I experienced "hot flashes," headaches, pain, and the strange increase in blood sugars. The blood sugars were actually what sent me to the doctor in the first place (that and the pain).

Although nothing is as bad as last year's cyst, it's still strikingly odd that my blood sugars would all of a sudden take flight into the 200's and stay there. But unfortunately, it's pointless to make the trip to the doctor to see if it is a cyst (considering they will just tell me there is nothing they can do). Instead, I'm going to wait it out.

And I'm picking up my new Lantus prescription tomorrow to see if the insulin has gone bad (although this carries a load of doubt in my mind). I'm also going to try a new site to do my insulin (with injections, I always use the left side of my body since it's easier). If that doesn't work, then I'm positive it's a cyst or hormonal change. Which means I'll be stuck waiting and hoping that my A1c isn't too greatly affected by this rise.

One of the most frustrating parts of all this is that diabetes has so many factors. There are considerations in food, exercise, bad insulin, bad sites, or just the body wreaking havoc throughout the endocrine system. All in all, diabetes is a tricky disease that takes so much time and intelligence to manage that I'm not at all surprised that we all get burnt out, depressed, and fed up with this disease. I, for one, am very burnt out on all of it!