Last week, I felt pretty on top of things. I had a burst of energy on Tuesday that lasted until Friday or so. I managed to study for a test, do some laundry, catch up on a load of dishes, and clean up the mess that accumulated over the past few weeks. I even went for a run on Friday morning.
My blood sugars were averaging 165 or so. I only jumped above 250 on two occasions, in the same night after a chocolate shake and high carb meal. I also wasn't having many lows. The stable numbers definitely helped me feel better.
There's still a lot that needs to get done. My apartment is nowhere close to being clean. It's really quite shameful. I have a yoga presentation to work on. I need to start studying for that physics test. And I've got a paper to revise for one of my sociology classes.
Unfortunately, my fatigue and headaches seem to be back. I'm also feeling more on edge than I was last week. I noticed it Sunday. My usual Saturday routine went fine...I rested, watched TV, did a little bit of housework. But by Sunday, I had a migraine and didn't want to get out of bed.
I did anyway. And felt okay the rest of the evening. But I couldn't get certain thoughts out of my mind...the stress of my current relationship, the dishes piling up again, and my schoolwork.
I started a symptoms journal Sunday because I'm looking for a trend. I'm a week away from my period. And although I'm on the pill, I still know those hormones and my own can cause plenty of issues. It could be the Accutane again...it seems like some of those side effects come and go (like the dry skin and chapped lips). I'm off in 35 days, so I'll know more in a few months.
But I'm hoping that I can find a trend for these symptoms. If I can pinpoint when the fatigue is worse or when the headaches seem to start, I can better manage. Not only can I take proactive measures at that time like trying for more sleep, exercising regularly, or eating more fruits.
If I can find a pattern, I can also manage my life around the peak of the symptoms. If I know that this week before my period causes the fatigue and rise in pain, I can plan certain events or chores around it. I can clean my house after this week. My papers and schoolwork can be moved around the peak weeks.
So we'll see what comes of it. For right now, I just want to focus on what I have to do and not what I'd like to do. The dishes can wait a few more days. The paper doesn't have to be perfect. And I can even push the studying back a week. Right now, I just need to focus on me and my health. Without that, nothing else matters.
You're doing a fantastic job when you focus on your health and what you need to do in order to maintain it.
One thing in your blog that caught my attention was those menacing dishes that need to be done. I tell you, sometimes in my own kitchen sink the stress of piled-up dishes can spike my blood sugar more than what was on the dishes to begin with. Okay, I'm exaggerating, but hear me out.
I decided one day when I went grocery shopping to buy plastic cups and paper plates and plasticware -- the really cheap kind.
The following week, I was surprised and pleased, after using the disposable plastic cups and paper plates, how empty the sink was!
But it has been said that you trade one disadvantage for another. The trash can was full of those used cups, plates, and plasticware, and I dislike taking out the trash as well because I live in a condo complex and have to carry garbage way across the parking lot to the dumpster.
C'est la vie, I suppose. :-)