I think I am losing my mind.

Back when I was in High School I never thought about diabetes or the fact that I could get it. I never thought that a disease would sneak into my life and change it forever. It was just not on my radar and not on my parents radar either. They were just as shocked as I was when I was diagnosed.

So now I am the parent and since I have diabetes, it I think about all the time. I hope some parents with diabetes can tell me how you deal with this but I think I am a little paranoid about my children getting diabetes.

My son is in High School and has joined the track team. He runs a lot. It is extremely hot here is Southern California. It makes sense that he is thirsty. But I panic when he refills a cup of water he just drank only to guzzle that one down too!

And he eats all the time. He is always hungry and never gains any weight. But he is a Freshman and he is growing. He also loves to play basketball and like I said before, runs a lot. Of course he would be hungry. Of course he would not gain weight. Of course he would be skinny.

But he is tired a lot. Sometimes he goes to bed before his bedtime! What teenager does that? Why is he tired so much? Maybe I should read those two paragraphs above.

The other night I was laying in bed and heard him get up to go to the bathroom. It took every ounce of control to stay in bed and not run and check his blood sugar. I hardly slept after that waiting for another visit to the bathroom that never came.

I do not want to check his BG ever time I suspect something or he does something that could fall into the catagory of diabetes symptoms.

What is wrong with me?

Is it wrong?

Honestly, and as hard as it is to admit, it is almost as if I am waiting for it.

Shame on me.