I look down at my finger tips and can only wonder what pricked formations lie ahead.
Four fingers have unique layouts of purplish-red dots. Each mark from it's own blood test in time. I daydream of defining those marks into something more relevant. A symbolic circle for worldwide diabetes awareness for instance. Or rows of hearts to swoon my girlfriend with. For the wanton sand bar look is not working for me.
I feel my silly dream may not come true. Not only because the idea of bleeding designs into fingertips is, well, somewhat odd, but also because my lancing device has the mirrored accuracy of Shaquille O'Neal at the free-throw line.
I understand blood sugar testing need not be such a production, but I want a lancing tool with guided laser sights! I'm talking about Skywalker skill here: able to bulls-eye womprats, like in his T-16 back home. And it needs to be able to withstand multiple uses a day, taking jaunting rides in a backpack and tossings of malcontent after unexpected meter readings.
Maybe this stems from a desire to achieve a higher level of control over my diabetes. Not the kind of control that keeps me healthy, the kind that makes me feel like I'm running the show around here. I don't want to see my hands as an overused path of self-regulation. Just the sensory receptive pads they were designed to be.
All of that, however, is just a pipedream for sun relaxed moments of wander. Maybe a simple game of connect the dots will give an inked homage of my desire to self-decorate. Honestly, I just want to add some fun to the daily D-grind. Is that so wrong? Of course not.






I have been a type 1 since 1966 at 3 years of age. I have seen alot of advancement in diabetis over the years. Yes I did get off track for many years (drinking, inproper eating and so on. In 2007 I went onto pump and started watching my diet more close. My last A1c was 6.5 down from over 8 6 years ago. If you can go onto the insulin pump I would recommend it HIGHLY. Sure I have suffered over the years with bad blood glucose and other factors ( relapsing remitting Multiple in Sclerosis in 2006 but overall Im doing OK for only living alone,working PT and my health has improved Down in weight 250 to 179 now. I take NOVALOG for Diabetis and COPAXONE for MS
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Well I made it this far, how about that! Got dx'd in 2003 so that's pretty good! But I am non plused this week as got a rash all over my face and also down in the nether parts of the land.... might be allergic to glucatrol! see the doctor tomarrow...now what?? Another round of meds???? So tired of this! Another possibility is yeast infection???? I don't see how that can be possible as last 3 months have been eating very little carbs and mostly meat and veggies. So frustrating! I don't have any health insurance either so it's been ducedly hard! 4 dollar meds at Walmart. and paying for chemstrips out of pocket to keep track of everything!I am elgible for health care insurance in January but my company is small so they don't have group insurance and it's exhorbitantly high.....so not sure if I can do it anyways!!! Even my monthly car payments aren't that high!!!Thanks for letting me vent! Kristy