It's not all about weight. Look at your numbers (A1C, cholesterol, blood pressure, and kidney/liver function) and your diet/exercise. It's not all about weight. It's how you are treating your body and your condition.

It's not all about weight. Look at your numbers (A1C, cholesterol, blood pressure, and kidney/liver function) and your diet/exercise. It's not all about weight. It's how you are treating your body and your condition.

I used to feel the exact same way. I used to call my way of eating "slow suicide"--jokingly, but knowing it was a little bit serious as well.

I've been much better since my trip to the ICU in October. Something inside of me just said (in surprise), "Huh, I don't want to die after all" and that was it. It was one of those weird life changing moments that I didn't believe in before it happened to me.

I never would have thought I could do it. And if I did'nt really think it was life or death, absolutely know it was life or death I still wouldn't do it. I know I wouldn't. Despite how good I feel when I lose another pound or size or my a1c goes down. Despite the completely undeniable increase in my self confidence I know that I wouldn't do it if I didn't feel I had to.

So I completely understand where you're at, and I hope you have your own ephiphany, minus the trip to the ICU of course. But if you don't, I won't judge you and I will always understand.

Rebecca

Been there, lost the weight, found myself thinner than all my friends and still borderline overweight (but with my ABC numbers going way-too-low), got stuck in a tethered-to-a-desk job munching for both lows and stress, ballooned back up, and now emotionally paralyzed by unemployment, freezing apartment/cold weather, and no gym membership... Need to refocus on life and quality-of-life...

A great help to me was an old cookbook I came across in a thrift store. It is: The Low-Carb Cookbook: The Complete Guide to the Healthy Low-Carbohydrate Lifestyle with over 250 Delicious Recipes, by Fran Mccullough. You can find it on Amazon.com. That book is the best I’ve found for getting started... I discover low-carb does not mean suffering for lack of flavor. It is REALLY low-carb, and not just “sorta.” I never felt like I was "missing out" on goodies.

Thanks for expressing how I feel. I know that A1C and cholesterol and blood pressure and all that are the most important things. But what makes me most happy? When I can fit into a size smaller jeans. Having gained and lost large chunks of weight 3 times in 20 years (50-75 pounds per gain/loss), I can also testify to the importance of social acceptance and how differently people treat you when you're slim-to-normal versus when you're obese. I'm an emotional eater, too, and I also have polycystic, hypothyroidism, and type 2. I have surgery scheduled in a week, and hopefully it won't be ovarian cancer. I've been trying to lose belly weight before the surgery so my surgeon doesn't have to "open me up," and it's just been impossible. So not only do I hate myself for not being able to lose weight for an urgent medical reason, I feel fat.