I went to my 3-month endo appointment today. (My dad also went for his check up.) Usually, I do fine with my endo, although I've never been thrilled with him. He's mainly there to tell me the blood results and fill prescriptions. Usually, I'm okay with that.

But today was a completely different story.

First, they didn't call me into the office until AFTER my dad was already done with his appointment (apparently, I was forgotten). Then they gave me hassle about doing the A1c. When it was finally done, they informed me that the machine broke in the middle of the test (now I have to wait 3 weeks to get the results from a blood draw.)

Since I've been having problems with my post-prandial blood sugars, I'm looking for whatever help I can get to bring them down. So I asked my doctor about using Symlin since I've heard good feedback on it from friends and other doctors that use it. I expected to receive the necessary information and be on my way with the prescription. But my doctor refused to give me the drug.

He said that most patients cannot get insurance coverage for the prescription (which honestly is not a problem for me since I'm willing to pay for things out of pocket). On top of that, the few patients that have used it didn't receive any difference in their numbers. I'll say it's a valid point.

But I also know that every diabetic is different. And I may have great success with Symlin while his other patients don't. Maybe they haven't used it correctly, long enough, or didn't log correctly. Bottom line, I should be allowed to try the drug. It's not an unreasonable request.

As he was going through his explanation of why he won't prescribe me Symlin, he mentioned that I didn't really need any help anyway. His reasoning: my A1c from September was 7.2%. I was shocked; my mouth even dropped open. I replied that I wanted an A1c under 7% so I wanted lower post-prandials (220 is not an acceptable post meal blood sugar!).

I left his office with a gnawing in my gut. My heart was nearly broken. I couldn't believe that I'd been denied a request to live a healthier life. 7.2% (which is NOT going to be where my A1c is this time around) is not acceptable for me. I want to be anywhere below 7%. Within the next two years, I want to have consistent A1c's under 6.5%. So that when I go to have a baby or get married, A1c's are NOT on my stress list. Not to mention that I want a long, healthy life without complications.

On the plus side, my dad's A1c was a beautiful 6.2%. If only it was that easy for me!