Last week was a tough one for me. I was starting to feel really depressed. I know it comes with the D-territory but I cannot stand to feel that way for long. All the comments I received were huge and helped a lot. Luckily, I had a really fantastic weekend that lifted my spirits too and moved me out of the depressed zone I was in.

But something that I do not think has ever happened to me, happened last night. I had a diabetes nightmare and it really scared me.

I should preface this story by telling you a little about my time right before I went to bed. As I got ready for bed I was telling my wife how much my feet have been hurting. Neuropathy has attacked my feet and they tingle all the time. It always feels like my back to the abdomen for a while.

Anyhow, let me tell you about this nightmare.

In the dream I was on vacation with my wife and kids. We were in Laughlin and we were just checking into our hotel for a week long stay. A whole week of vacation sounded great and so we unpacked our stuff. I noticed that my feet were tingling a lot so I decided to check them out. I pulled off my socks and much to my surprise, my big toe on my right foot (the one that is tingling like mad as I type this) was completely black. Just like the posters in my doctor's office.

I remember looking at my toe and thinking, "that's it. Diabetes won." When my wife came in I told her that we had to get to the hospital so I could save my foot. She was upset but I remember that I was not angry as much as I was feeling defeated. It was as if diabetes was my enemy and it just took me out. It won the battle I have been fighting.

I woke up feeling horrible and had to immediately check out the toe. It is fine but still hurts a lot. Losing my feet is my biggest fear and the way my toe looked in the dream was terrifying. So vivid.

Please tell me about any Diabetes Nightmares you have had. I am sure that diabetes penetrates into our subconscious. Heck, its apart of all we do!