I usually keep a pretty basic logbook. I record every blood sugar based on time along with my Lantus injections, workouts, sickness, and any abnormal food choices (like pizza or chocolate shakes). I circle anything that's above 250 or below 70 and try my hardest to put some comment to the paper. I average by day and by time of day with an overall ending average for the week.

I don't do it everyday. At least twice a week, I sit down with it. I record it all then stare for a minute, an hour, whatever to see patterns or necessary changes. It keeps me aware. I can see how certain things are affecting me, if my Lantus is adequate, if my medications are making a difference. It lets me know where I stand in this whole diabetes management thing.

But last month, my desktop computer crashed. A power outage. I still have my laptop, but I have no connection to the printer in my house. So I haven't printed a new log sheet in weeks. Which means that I haven't recorded anything in weeks.

I've glanced at the averages on my meter (the OneTouch UltraSmart does the weekly and timely averages that I need but with less detail). Those averages haven't really told me anything though. I knew I was running high or low during certain days, but I didn't have record of how insulin or food or anything was really affecting me. I could record that with my meter, but I just don't. It's a hassle.

So pretty much for the last month, diabetes hasn't been a priority for me. It's usually on my weekly list of to dos. But now, it's the furthest thing from my mind. I'm doing the routine...taking the insulin and just watching for overall trends. Yet I'm not looking with detail, for change.

And I have to say that I don't want to. My meter says my averages are around 170. I'm not having excessive highs or lows without explanation, except for the few days last week when I went off the Accutane. At least not that I've noticed. I realize that 170 isn't a decent average. But for me, it's where I want to be.

It works right now because I have so much else in my life going on. I've been planning my graduation vacation and still have a lot more to finalize before we leave. Like shore excursions and what I'm going to wear. Not to mention how many books I need to bring for two 16+ hour flights.

I've also got school zapping a lot of my time. I'm trying to test out of physics on May 7th. I have a research paper due in a week. I've got four final exams over the next four weeks. Not to mention just the daily hassle of attending class, keeping up with readings, and checking my school email.

Even the smallest things are time consuming. I'm finally getting around to cleaning and organizing my apartment now that I have more energy. I've been slowly working on tasks over the past four days. And I'm only half way done. It doesn't help that I'm going through everything to see what can be tossed and mentally organizing where it needs to go in my mind (mom's, dad's for storage, or Good Will). I even need to go pick up boxes in the next few weeks...to start packing the last three years of my life away.

Plus I'm in desperate need of a life. So I'm trying to maintain my social calendar. I saw my best friend last weekend. I've driven to see another good friend twice lately. And I'm seeing Marvin regularly. It's mandatory that I keep that up. I know that I get burned out if I just continuously work or continuously sit.

So needless to say, diabetes isn't balanced into this lifestyle that I'm keeping right now. And it won't be until it's all said and done. Once I've graduated, moved, and settled into this new "post grad" life, then diabetes will pop back on my radar. And hopefully, I can devote even more time to steady schedules, averages, and lowering my A1c.

That being said, I think I've settled in my mind that I don't want to start the Metformin until that point. Right now, I just don't feel prepared to handle the possible side effects or the blood sugar changes that will definitely occur. June 1st is my new start date. Plus I'm changing my birth control from Ortho Tri Cyclen Lo to Yaz in a few weeks, which might have its own side effects (I'm hoping for positive ones because the OTCL  has given me a few that I'm sick of).

For me, maintaining balance is vital. I take one day a week to not get dressed and not do anything I don't want to do. I make sure I keep a social life and don't lock myself away working. And sometimes, I let diabetes take the backseat. After 17 years, I can't imagine any other way. Seventeen years of continuous, constant diabetes care is too overwhelming.

So right now, life is my priority. The physics test, the move, the birth control change. It's all daunting on its own. Diabetes doesn't need to complicate that. And right now, it won't.