I should have known that there would be frustration. I guess I thought that since I wasn't new to basal/bolus therapy that my transition from MDI to the pump would be smooth. And it mostly has, but the last two days I have been running higher than usual with no explanation. Enter frustration.

So when Mom called last night to see how Toohey and I were getting along, I was telling her about all the things that could be making me high:

*basal rate set too low
*active insulin time set too long
*were my jeans too tight today?
*I think I'm ovulating
*or maybe my period is going to start soon
*does my infusion set need to be changed?
*when I was on Lantus, I took it at night; do I need a higher overnight basal rate?
*is all this stress about my high numbers making things worse?

I think I exhausted her with all these possibilities! I took it all in stride yesterday, but today--not so much. (READ MORE)

Well, as I expected, raising Olivia's basal rates sent her plummeting into some nasty lows. I've put her rates back to where they were (thank goodness for different basal settings - I don't have to re-program the pump). She couldn't get out of the 60s today. She felt lousy and spent a good portion of the morning guzzling juice.

I can't figure this out. It's so frustrating. She's not sneaking food. She's not eating more than usual - at least, not since Christmas day - but her numbers were astronomical and took a couple of days of increased basals to get down. She doesn't have her period, although that's another bone of contention - she never tells me when she gets it and unless I happen to notice...stuff...it doesn't get recorded in her log. Very frustrating.

I hate this stupid disease. It frustrates me on so many levels and I don't handle frustration very well.
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