His hands move over my waist to my hips.  He brushes by my insulin pump, which feels to me about fifty times its actual size.  I wonder, does he notice it there beneath my clothes, beneath his hand? 

My bloodsugar is 355 mg/dl.  I feel yucky.  I know I'm spilling ketones.  When he kisses me, do I taste like fruit, like wine, like the acetone that's eating away at me?  Does he see the awful dry feeling behind my eyes; is he thinking I look as horrible as I feel? 

He takes my hand, lacing his fingers through mine.  I trace his palm with my fingertips.  Why do these calluses feel so obvious, so hard and unfeminine? 

We are heated and intense.  I am lost in this embrace. My head is floating somewhere in a passionate, dizzy ether. Or am I low?  And if I am, how can I stop and ask for time at this particular moment?  (READ MORE)