In one of my high school English classes, we had to read Samuel Beckett's play of this name. Thirty-some-odd years later, I don't remember the details, only that it centered around two men who seemed to be relatively old, penniless, and alone. They met at a particular spot each day, left each evening, and could only remember one day past and think towards one day forward. They awaited a third character, the eponymously named "Godot", who never arrived. The style was considered existentialist in that there wasn't all that much character development: what you saw was what you got. While I never read the French original, in English, "Godot" seemed a thinly-veiled metaphor for "G-d" — and since old, penniless (and possibly homeless) folk have always had the shortest from-this-point life expectancy, it made sense — at least on one level — that these two characters were waiting to die.

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I usually listen when The Universe talks and lately I've been feeling that The Universe has been whispering in my ear.

At least once a month I get a call from the medical supply company where I used to get my Dexcom sensors. Usually it's about "an order you recently made." Which I didn't because I haven't used Dex in a very long time. In fact, I can't remember the last time I used it. Pretty sure I haven't used it at all this year.

I always ignore the phone message since I didn't place an order. 

Yesterday I got an email from Dexcom about tips for caring for Dexcom during the summer. I figured The Universe was speaking to me again, but now in a louder voice.

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Sunday morning, shortly before 7AM, we spied the familiar red arch that is the start/finish line for the NJ Skylands Tour de Cure. It's very similar to the inflatable arches you may see at the smaller day races and one-week stage races streamed on Eurosport, except that, well, it's red, and it says "American Diabetes Association" rather than Škoda (a major sponsor of European bicycle races).

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It has only been a couple months since I took an unintended break from Metformin. I had taken about a week off because I couldn't seem to get to the pharmacy to pick up the prescription, and when I finally did start taking Metformin again it upset my stomach something fierce. So I decided to take a longer break. Actually, I figured I could just give it up completely because spending that much time in the bathroom and feeling as rotten as I did wasn't worth it.

At first my sugars seemed to be doing fine. But lately I'm not doing so good in the blood sugar management department. Particularly with fastings. Whoo boy have they been high. I figured it was a pattern of eating slow-absorbing carbs in the evening. I have been going to bed with acceptable readings and waking with atrocious readings. I didn't think about Metformin until this morning. (READ MORE)

It's been a long time since I wore my Dexcom. I can't even remember how long it's been. And frankly I've rather enjoyed not having that extra "thing" to look at and be conscious of. Sure, there are times when I realize it would have been useful, but overall I'm OK with not having it.

Yet today, I really wished I'd had it. It's very easy for me to get overheated here in the desert. Doesn't matter what season it is (but naturally summer is worse), the sun really gets to me. A few springs ago I was taking pictures of the kids in our backyard. I wore a sun visor at least; I don't think I was wearing a hat. I was exerting little energy and still got so overheated that I thought I was going to faint. It took a long time under a ceiling fan before I felt like I could get up.

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To everything there is a level of precision, a degree of reliability, or a standard beyond which improvement is either unachievable, or requires huge investments of time and money well beyond the benefit of that improvement. Companies may refer to this point as "zero return on investment". Most of us just call it "good enough for jazz", "good enough for government work", or simply, "good enough".

It has been said that our ideal blood glucose levels "should" never vary outside the range of 80-126, ever -- but most of us don't have CGMs, none of us have glucose measurement technology with accuracy of greater than 5% (expanding that range out to 76-132) and even if we had them, we'd need infinitesimally-small amounts of ultra-fast acting insulin to keep it there every time it budged a point or two. For most of us, a two-hour postprandial reading of 140 is "good enough". (READ MORE)