Brock G on Flickr

My 31-day average is 165. Blah. I'm wincing just to write that. One hundred and sixty-five is way above the averages that I like to see, especially when it's all combined like that. When month long averages are numbers like 165, you just know that your A1c is going to be terrible.

I know that I haven't worked as hard as I should have over the last few months. Life has taken precedence over diabetes management. Sometimes that happens; sometimes I let it be okay. But right now, it's not okay. If life takes priority, I don't manage as closely as I should. When I don't manage closely, I'm cutting my life short. The life that's taking priority...ironic, right?

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TopTechWriter.US on Flickr

Sometimes I get in slumps with my diabetes. I just put things off and don't watch much. I guess you could say that I get kind of "spacey" about all things diabetes related.

The last few days I've been feeling this "spacey" feeling. I don't test like I should. I don't log anything. I can barely remember to bolus.

Today, I've checked my blood sugar three times. Once when I woke up. Once before lunch. And once a few hours ago because I was low. Good pattern, huh?

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Ugh.

That is the perfect one word description of my diabetes management these days.  I am off the rails.  I am not on track.  I am completely (or so it seems) - out of control.  I see highs, I see lows, I see some in-range sugars - but mostly - not. 

Today, for example.  68 mg/dl this morning.  No breakfast, because I was too busy, just some Fuse Banana Colada juice.  119 mg/dl at around noon time.  Salad.  No test until 4pm.  4pm.  And I've tested two times today.  Then I'm 200 mg/dl...  So what do I do?  I have a carb heavy dinner and some ice cream.  I am 236 mg/dl at 6:30 pm.  I am 175 mg/dl now.  Terrible.  Terrible.  Terrible.  And not rare these days.

I haven't been to the gym at all this week.  Work activities.  Home searches...  Other stuff that's - distracting. 

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