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I know that I am losing weight. You know it. All of my friends and family know it and it’s because I love to talk about it! I share my weight loss journey whenever and wherever I can.
But strangers don’t know. This time of year is filled with open houses, band performances, and other end of the year school stuff. Every time I walk into a room I quickly check to see if I am the “fat guy” in the room. I know it is a horrible habit but for most of life I always was. I still am that guy in many situations.
There is a feeling I get when I see that everyone else is slim and trim and my fat self is slopping around the room. I can feel their eyes looking at me wondering if I know how horrible I look. Thinking about how I am going to kill myself with French fries and hamburgers. I am sure most do not even notice but I create this scenario in my head.
Maybe I should wear a shirt that says, “I used to be fatter!” Or a button that says, “On the weigh down” or something like that.
I once had a distant cousin tell me, “Man have you put on some weight?” To which I replied, “Actually I was about a hundred pounds more then this but now I am on the way down.” It was a total fib at the time but felt good just the same.
Am I the only person who looks around the room and creates an uncomfortable environment for themselves? My guess is that there are many like me.
If you are one of those people, I hope that you remember this post. My guess is 9 times out of 10, we are the ones creating that environment. Not others. We know what we are doing for our health and those closes to us know.
And even if you are struggling to get your health and weight under control, don’t give up. Stay in touch or send me a message. I have been fighting this fight all of my life but I have never felt stronger than I do now. We can all support one another.
Now for some baby carrots!
I March of 07 at the time of my diagnosis of Type 2 I was 270(5'9"). I gained 7 more pounds on Glipizide alone. I then requested diabetic training and and Endocronoligist(sp). He put me on Byetta and I lost 17 lbs. I also read all the blogs I could find. I found a memtion of Dr. Richard Bernstein. In October I started low carb and until April of 08 I had lost 49lbs. My Asthma started acting up and they put me on Prednizone for 15 days. I gained 18lbs back in four weeks. I am working harder to bring the weight back down. Before the summer heat I was walking 3 times a day for a total of 5.5 miles a day. I am back to between 3 and 4 miles a day but still fighting the urges for CARBS. I blame it on the Prednizone, it is easier that way but I know I have less self control than before.
My A1C in Dec of 07 was 5.3, Feb of 08 was 4.9 and Aprl of 08 it was 5.5.
It is very hard to get back into the grind of low carbs.
I read ya'll everyday. Thanks
It's even more uncomfortable once you're somewhere "reasonable but not perfect" and everyone around you is three or four sizes larger (or more) -- but not apparently **obese** -- and everyone around you thinks you're thin, but you still have visible pads of fat between the hanging folds of skin. (Not that gaining it back -- unintentionally -- is any better, mind you!)
I do it too! Don't worry, you're not the only one.
The other day at Curves this one lady was telling me how great I look and we started talking about how much weight I lost. When I said I weighed 180, she (almost involuntarily, I think) said "That's what my husband weighs and he's 6 feet tall!" (I'm 5'2).
If I had been in a different mood I think I would've been pretty upset by this--the realization that I still have a long "weigh" to go (ha, ha). But I just laughed and said, "Last summer I weighed 241". So it did put things into perspective. :)
You're definitely right that I wish I could make sure everybody knew that. On the way up I hated myself at the size I'm at now. On the way down I feel so much better about it and it does bother me a little to think that people who don't know me just think "Fat Chick".
Rebecca