Barnaby

Blogging is difficult for me sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I love this website and everyone associated with the Blogabetes community. Each and every one of you continue to be an enormous help. I can come on here and rant and rave to the ENTIRE WORLD about my life with diabetes. I make friends, I laugh, I tear up, and it's all wonderful. It's fantastic and I have no doubt this will continue to be an extremely helpful thing for me and everyone else too. At times though, the only thing I crave is complete and utter privacy, freedom from the world of diabetes and from everything. The last thing on my mind is the desire to share one more personal diabetic experience with the world. I have come to the conclusion there are a couple reasons why I feel this way.

One reason why I have trouble blogging sometimes is depression. I have never been to see anyone about this very serious subject. Nor do I plan to any time soon. As many of you know, I openly discuss the methods I use to combat my (diabetes-related) depression. It's the stuff I talk about on here. Martial arts, working out, and doing whatever it takes to battle through the hard times. I guess I want to try and maintain my "natural" way of coping with depression. I haven't gotten to the point (recently anyway) where I feel I need medicine or counseling for depression. Maybe having that kind of attitude is exactly why I should?

I have a lot of questions and thoughts about it. Who isn't on depression medicine these days? Isn't everybody? It seems like so many people in today's world are taking medication for depression. I'm not making light of this situation or joking either.

If you're not taking medication, doesn't just about everybody deal with some kind of depression? I have seen statistics pertaining to diabetes and depression and it's, well, depressing. It's just another one of those categories where people with diabetes are included.

The other reason why I have difficulty sharing my stories sometimes is because of sensitivity. Maybe it's just me, but after getting diabetes I became much more sensitive. It's hard having the entire internet as your audience. I try to be very careful about the things I say and the thoughts and experiences I share with you on here. You never know who's reading your stuff. You want to trust that you can divulge your deepest and darkest secrets and stories. But in today's world it's different. This is my diabetic diary of sorts and I leave it open for you to thumb through. Thank you for continuing to be respectful and for your continued support. It's the reason why I still contribute and enjoy it.

Andy.