Why is it so hard to get back on track after you fall off the diet wagon? Each day, I start out with good intentions, but somewhere along the line, my eating has gone straight to pot.

I think it started almost a month ago now, right after getting fasting bloodwork done at my endo's office. I "celebrated" with a breakfast at McDonald's, something I'd been craving for a while. Then I had a few run-ins with a Chick-Fil-A sandwich, waffle fries (dipped in mayo) and cole slaw.

After that was the Snickerdoodle incident (which I blamed on my friend Lizzy for introducing me to the sweet, slightly cinnamon flavored, sugar cookies at Whole Foods). Following closely on its heels was the chocolate chip cookie catastrophe. Now I'm in the midst of a full-blown cupcake bender.

Who do I think I am? What in the world makes me think I can eat these foods without consequences?

I know I have to rein it in. So far, the scale has been kind to me throughout this ordeal, as in, I have not gained 10 pounds. My blood sugar has also been good despite this non-diabetes friendly diet I've been on. But I know this isn't good for my health or my weight, yet its like a fast moving train that's gaining steam and I just can't seem to stop.

And that's when the excuses come in. I've never been an I'll-start-my-diet-on-Monday type of person. Why put off for tomorrow what I can do today? But now I find myself looking to the future and saying, I'll get back on track next Monday. My reasoning? I'm hosting a brunch on Sunday, so I can't diet. Well that's five days from now. If I were smart, I would at least eat healthy until then.

I'd like to say that I AM smart and I WILL eat healthy starting now, but there's that voice in the back of my head reminding me of the cupcakes in the cupboard calling my name.

Why does this have to be so hard?

My mind is going back and forth. On one hand, I should just make a commitment, even if its just a baby step. On the other hand, cupcakes, sweet cupcakes, calling to me.

Could I commit to just not eating another cupcake this afternoon? No more cupcakes until after dinner. And then, just one cupcake. I can have one cupcake for dessert.

I feel like I'm striking a bargain with a finicky 5-year-old. No, you can't have any dessert until you eat your dinner. If you eat two meatballs, you can have dessert. See these two meatballs here, I'm going to cut them in half for you. Yes, there are four piece on the plate, but it is still two meatballs. Eat all four pieces and you can have dessert.

I can see myself striking bargain with myself later. Hmm, no cupcakes until after dinner. Why don't we eat dinner at four tonight, no make it three. Heck 2:30. In some countries, the big meal of the day is served at noon. Why not have dinner now?

I'm making a public declaration. I will not eat any more cupcakes until after dinner today. And to be clear, I will not serve dinner until after the baby has been fed, bathed and put to bed.