Kerri asked on her other blog today (Six Until Me) if sleep deprivation affects diabetes care. I can give an answer to that: It's a resounding yes.

I am constantly tired. Not only do I have a 19 year-old son and Olivia (and no one told me that 13 was going to be so exhausting), I have two little girls. The youngest, who is 17 months old, is still waking up 4, 5, sometimes 6 times a night and she wants to nurse every. single. time. Even if I go to bed at 11, I'm still not getting a full night's sleep. Heck, I could go to bed at 8 and still not get a full night's sleep. It's maddening.

Olivia's diabetes management suffers as a result. I forget to ask her how much insulin is left in her pump. I forget to ask her how many test strips she has left, how much insulin is in the fridge, whether she needs to change her site today or tomorrow. And most of all, I forget to log.

I beat myself up over this all the time. I do it here and in real life. I feel guilty about it constantly. I holler at myself and for a week or two, I'm really good. And then I slip. I forget to log for a few days and I think "Well, I'll just start on Monday." Monday rolls around and I forget again. It's awful.

I think I have the software that lets me download the pump information to my computer. Maybe if I did that, at least, it would be something. Her meter (the Ultra Mini) doesn't download, which really sucks. Hopefully, though, downloading the pump will be the kick I need to get this going.

I used to be so good at this. I hate that I'm not any more.