It's strange sometimes how the tide can shift so quickly. Where I was this time last week is not where I am today. I've gone from thinking my endo was off his rocker to even consider me as a candidate for the pump, to going full-tilt toward pump therapy.

When B. first told me about MiniMed's pump with the integrated CGMS I really poo-pooed the idea, telling him that although I have high and low swings, I didn't feel like I was "bad enough" to warrant having a CGMS. I pay attention to my body, I test when I'm feeling low, etc. (It's that "I'm 'only' type 2" mentality.)

But he really got me thinking about it, as any good salesman should. I spent hours online that night comparing features of pumps. My mind was effectively changed. The Mr. wanted to know if I was settling because of a good sales pitch or if I was really making an informed decision. "He's a good salesman," I told The Mr., "but he's also right about this system."

I started thinking four years into the future. This is a machine that I'll live with throughout its warranty period. That's four years. Where will I and my diabetes be then? If at three years into my diagnosis I'm to the point of deciding to use pump therapy, shouldn't I go ahead and get what I feel is going to aide me most for the next four years?

Although I was already pushing for B. to hound my insurance company to get the CGMS sensors covered, I had one of those reinforcing moments today. I didn't have my normal breakfast. I was tired of oatmeal and wanted to shake things up. So I had cereal. And then started working around the house, started cleaning, started being myself. I didn't test until the kids sat down for lunch. And, really, the only reason I did it then was because I realized I hadn't tested after breakfast.

I was 50 and had no symptoms of a low. None. This is a place I've been before. I can't tell you how many times I've been in the 50s and not felt a thing; once after dinner I was feeling low--although not an urgent low--and was actually in the low 30s.

It's no longer a matter of CGMS being something "extra" that I want, this is technology that will clearly benefit my diabetes management.