So, hi. I haven't been around for a bit. No excuses, really, other than life getting in the way.

Well, life and a bit of embarrassment thrown in for good measure. You see, I've fallen off the logging wagon.

I know why. We had to move and I packed up the computer that had the log sheet program on it. For a couple of weeks, while all of our stuff was in boxes, I just didn't log. And I rarely looked at Olivia's pump or meter, either. I'd ask her every day how she was doing, but other than that, nothing.

When I would go over her numbers, I could find no pattern to her highs and lows. Nothing was jumping out at me and it was frustrating and unfortunately, I stuck my head in the sand over it.

Then we visited the endo. There's nothing like an endo visit to give you a slap in the face (or kick in the arse, whatever is needed). Olivia's CDE was nice about it, but firm. I need to take 5 minutes every day and go over her pump and meter. I nodded, I agreed. I know I need to do this.

So why can't I get back on the wagon? Burn out? General malaise and lack of moral fibre?

I am not doing Olivia any favours, I'm not being a very responsible parent right now and I really need to get my head out of my butt and just do this. I am hoping that by putting this out here, I'll feel embarrassed enough about it that I'll start again. It's Monday. Most of the chaos of moving is done. It's time. Time to start over. Time to just do it.