Hi i never really saw sharing my diabetes story was neccesary but i come here and when i read some of de stories on this blog i feel it deep in my heart. it is as if some my heart is being pierced. u cant help but 2 be sympahetic. and also being that u have de disease, u know exactly wat some of de folks here are going thru. so i just want 2 share my story here with anyone interested. i read the blogs but i do it quietly and leave. i deal with this disease in de best of my ability. i have never been helped,just like most of u guys who i have read their stories. this disease or 4 that matter any disease is like armagedon ( sort of like de end of de world ), cus at de end of de world people will be only concerned with themselves only and not anyone. sort of like all on ur own. well dont wanna bother u with my long digressions.
well i was diagnosed wth this disease in january 2007. trust me i was shocked and felt like the world on my shoulder, cus i did not even know wat it is and wat it does. i know it exist but thought it was 4 fat people. i mean big people. that was my understanding of it or old people. so now here is a young man 36 years old, a former weight lifter a deacde ago, being told he have diabetes. i was shocked, but i will never be de same again. first i was not all dat shocked cus my mum have it. i came from a background where medical history was not that known , it was not seriously followed. so never did i evenn know that most of these diseses are inheritable. when my mum acquired it , she might not even know exactly when it sets in, but i know she have it 4 de past 4 years, maybe she have it and she did not even know.in addition my 2 sisters came down with it recently.
now i went into overdrive, i went online and studied all about this disease, first i was depressed a bit, but overcame it. i bought my meters like everyone else, it is like crakheads buying their pipes(u cant be a real crakhead without ur pipes, they carry anywhere they go). now on de advise of my doctor who helped me got started, i started reading and studying the disease. What i found so shocking about this disease is it's aassociation with food.the thing about all this disease is i was so shocked to find how food play part in our lives. after learning about diabetes and other diseases like heart disease, i was so shocked 2 see de fundamental imporatmnce food plays in it. i mean food is behind most diseases( i mean relations). i was so naive about eating, exercising. used 2 laf at people who are jogging, i never understood them , i thought they just like 2 do it.i have not exercised in 9 years. i mean serious execise. did not even know cardiovascular is that important. in short i was ignorant. both on food and exercise. now after knowing that the disease in inheritable and the diet u choose can accelerate de development of de disease, i was shoicked . my traditional dieting have been mostly of carbos, lots people of my background have been eating lots of carbs, mix with other stuff. but trust me my diet have been lots of carbs and meat, and other stuff.i have eating lots of balanced diets, but compare 2 wat i know now it was not good enough. lots of fried food,meat,starchs, and stuff was on de menu.to be short diet was not that pyramidal.
now having said all that.i started working hard, i exercised. run , first i started with 20 mins jogs, then 45s, walking long distance walks. in 8 months i have work so hard even i m proud of self, my diagnoses of type 2 was not that serious, it started with reading like 260. then i worked on it , exercicing, eating right, i have changed my whole diet. i have become so diet conscious that sometimes i think i go too far. i do eat wat i like sometimes but i follow that strict way.my initial sugar was 260, this is de highest i ever tested which was in januray 2007, now i have been taking metformin and 4 de past 8 months my sugar level is ok, i test anywhere from 95-110 in de morning, and 2hours after eating always below 140, and never tested high. i have run miles, i mean miles. i live in nyc so im always walking and xploring de city. the city is vast, so i walk in most days. i exercise ligh on weedays, and weekends i do intensive execising. i jog miles, this weekend alone i jogged over 20miles. i never thought i will become such a runner, never. i run from de bronx 2 manhattan. 10 miles each . after going into manhattan after 10 miles i took the train back to the bronx.saturday and sunday. one of my longest. i keep pushing my self. i started with small miles, now i do 10 10miles. i was amazed. i take 2 oral medicines, and eat right. mostly low fat diets, whole foods, veges, fruits and other stuff. i have become knowleadgaeable when it comes 2 food , and still learning. my reading are in normal range all de tyme. and now im gonna start resistant training 2 supplement my runnings and walkings, this is cus i used 2 do this, and since im not big or fat it males me more slimmer ,. and need 2 put more muscles. i think my shape and my lack of weight have helped me gain a bit control of the disease, since im not that big it helps a lot. i weighed 170 when i was diagnosed now i weigh 152 , lost weights, even though im slim.
the thing about diabetes is , it really make u do some serious self search and self anaylyis, plus lots of thinking , and it shutters ur sense of wellbeing and normalcy. i think it is a very serious and annoying. also very xpensive disease. it is easy if u are rich. the time 2 exercise alone is xpensive.. it makes u feel terrible, but once u gain control u will bury it, it is a long long disease but when u gain de upper hand, u dont even feel it, cus u in charge.sometimes i dont even test cus i know it is ok, i only test mostly in de mourning and after eating 2 see if i go into low, cus after taking my medicine after eating it takes me low, but this happens only after lunch. i also test b4 and after exercise. most of my numbers are b/lw 125. be it morning or evening.\
i say this life with diabetes after diagnoses and understanding wat the disease is like HIV. it is really no difference with all those high immunine defiecency diseases. cus it is like death penalty.i mean anybody who really read deep about diabetes and de complications will be scared. i was very scared, and e more i read the more scarier i do become. i dont know about any of u, but i was, so this is why i'm comparing it 2 hiv people, but even those people overcome de scariness of de disease, they move and get 2 understand it ,and go on with their lives. so should people with diabetes. i bet u all people with any chronic disease will feel de same. cus they all lead to death. breast cancer, heart disease,blood pressure,stroke, u name it. all lead 2 de same destination.so i say 2 people with diabetes and all other disease 2 take it serious and deal with it, remember with any disease u r only trying 2 prevent the complications. cus it is de complications u dont want. so do ur best and gain control of it,( but always remember we can only do wat we can.god always in charge.) it is hard but do ur best. my motto is do ur best and gain control and dont worry too much .i say this cus i want 2 pour my guts out, and thx i have , never intended 2 share this story but felt like i have to. this is a great site 2 discuss our diabetes stories. i know there are countless.
thx 4 reading.