I've put off starting Metformin for several months. I just don't want to risk the nausea and tummy troubles that so many people have on it. I hate being nauseous. It's the one sickness that I really don't do well with at all. Give me pain, but don't make my stomach hurt.
Each week is passing with highs that don't budge, injection after injection trying to compensate, weight gain, and the occasional hormone-related breakout. Some of that I know is my fault. But some is completely out of my control and most likely due to the insulin resistance that goes along with PCOS.
I'd love to have the kind of diabetes that stays steady and runs normal. Like my dad. He barely struggles with anything over 180. He doesn't even count carbs, although he does maintain a fairly strict low carb diet. But even when he splurges, he does not see numbers like I do. And I'm sick of that.
I'm sick of the 200s and 300s that are so common these days. I'm sick of the way the highs make me feel. Fuzzy. Tired. Moody. The headaches and stomach issues. The itchy skin. All the side effects of constant highs. The guilt. The idea that I can't really be healthy or feel healthy with these highs looming over my shoulder.
So I'm hoping to start Metformin on Wednesday. As long as I don't chicken out. I raised my Lantus today by one unit and I tried to cover all my carbs with adequate insulin. Yet I'm still high. And I'm still feeling the fuzziness of weeks of this. I need help.
I need Metformin. I want to stand strong on Wednesday and take it and deal with the side effects. I'm starting on a low dose and moving up very, very slowly. But any twinge of nausea will leave me extremely unhappy. I figure that now is the best time to bite the bullet and start this next phase of treatment though.
For me, the combination of type 1 and PCOS leaves my blood sugars in a constant roller coaster phase. And I really want that to stop. I also hate having to combat the weight gain and acne that PCOS likes to throw my way. Metformin should help both.
I plan to fill the prescription tomorrow so that I have it and can't back out by not getting the prescription. I have three interviews over Monday and Tuesday so I don't want to risk tummy troubles when I have definite places to be. Wednesday is the 1st which seems a prime day to start Metformin.
Can you guys hold me to it? Encouragement is much appreciated!
Oh Lindsey, I wish I could reach across the screen and give you a big virtual hug. I'm dealing with some persistent highs lately, as well, but it has to do with all the SWAG bolusing I've been doing lately with the holiday feasting. It's so frustrating and bums you out worrying about the future.
When that happens, I have to take a deep breath and step back and start all over. Just remember that this disease sucks and there's no one to blame but it. The fact that you're staying on top of things despite things not going so well says a huge amount about your persistence.
So many people would have given up by now with all the issues you have. Keep at it, girl, and it will pay off eventually. =)
go linds! seriously proud of u and you will be fine...just remember that it myt be kinda hellish for the first few days but it does stop after a while and the effects are awesome...well they were for me...i now ask the question why they make drugs that rub ur back n soothe you with one hand then b@#$% slap you with the other? Why arent there drugs that just help for helping sake?
but dont worry i know u will b ok...bigger picture n all that...lol