I spent the last six days in Mexico with my mom on a quick vacation. Now that I'm back I feel a little overwhelmed at everything that's happening. I cannot believe how quickly this year has flown by, especially the last two months.

There's a lot on my mind right now from laundry to tuition being due soon. Tuition that I don't exactly have. But my biggest thought at the moment is about employment.

When I got off the plane on Wednesday, I had several voicemails. One from a non-profit that I applied with several weeks ago. And another about a temporary position. I've been working with temp agencies for several weeks now although I have yet been able to accept any jobs. I get calls pretty frequently, but things just keep seeming to come up.

I have an interview in a week and a half with the non-profit. I also received an email today about preliminary interviews with another non-profit. Both of these positions are part time and permanent, which would carry me into school. Both would also be great since I'd be using my degree and work experience.

The temporary position starts Monday and goes through the end of the year. The pay is great and the location is too. My hesitance is that it's a full time position and temporary positions tend to not give any time off at all. That wouldn't be a problem except that it is.

First, I've been spoiled by only working here and there over the past few months. I did some work for my mom. I do the blog, plus we had a big project last month. So I'm not used to putting in an 8 or 9 hour day Monday through Friday. I'm used to spending my day running errands, cleaning my apartment, and getting ready for evenings with Marvin or simple evenings at home.

Second, there are several things that I would prefer (need?) time off for. One is for interviews with permanent positions, which is my ultimate goal. Two, my therapy sessions are only during times that I'd be working at this job. I've only been to one therapy session so far, but I found the therapist to be nice and I was greatly helped just by that one session. I really hate to give that up for the next two months.

It would be great to have an income over the next two months though. The location is fairly close to my house as well as Marvin's work (which means that we might be able to grab lunch together sometimes). It'd be great to get up in the morning with purpose.

But I can't help feel that committing my full time life over the next two months is a little frightening. I can't help but wonder when I will have time to grocery shop, go home, or see that therapist. It's a lifestyle adjustment that I would rather not make.

Yet I assume that I will because an extra income would be nice as well as things to do on a daily basis. Plus I'm feeling a bit spoiled by thinking that I should keep holding out for a position that REALLY works for me.