I've been nursing a lot of highs lately. I'm not talking about the mediocre 200s, but full blown 400s and 300s. Both Saturday and today, I've been stuck well above a comfortable range.

Saturday was quite terrible with nausea, headaches, and unquenchable thirst. Even with incredible doses of insulin, I just seemed stuck above 300. I'd eaten a high carb breakfast, but I'd done adequate insulin. And then followed it with even more adequate insulin and then some.

Last night's Mexican dinner seems to have pushed me into the 290 to 350 range. It's a dinner that I've had plenty of times, done the right insulin, and not seen these torrential highs. It just doesn't add up.

Every now and then, I seem to struggle like this. I have days where all I feel comfortable eating is jell-o and popsicles. It's a constant routine of check, inject, drink water. It's getting really old.

I don't think it's the insulin going bad considering Sunday was a day of fairly wonderful numbers. It's not related to any hormones. I haven't changed anything else. And stress doesn't usually affect me like this.

I do plan to change my Humalog once my new shipment comes in this week, just in case. I'm trying to stay extra vigilant about my Lantus as well (even increasing it one unit last night) so that I'm at least covered on the baseline. Other than that, I'm not sure what to do except stop eating.

Sometimes diabetes comes naturally. Sometimes it's the biggest pain in the world with complicated numbers and unexplained issues.

Diabetes can make even the smallest task the biggest feat of your life. Successfully eating more than 10 carbs seems to be my task lately. I can't seem to do it right and it's one of the most frustrating feelings in the world. Because eating is entirely fundamental to living. Eating is something that I really like to do.

I think diabetes' interaction with food is one of the most unfair portions of this disease. From 4 years old, I've had a crooked relationship with food. Even at 21 years old, my relationship with food can't be easy.

Diabetes is truly a one day at a time kind of disease. This Labor Day is my one day. Hopefully tomorrow will be a new one with new numbers that are in a much better range and much more balanced eating.