Life is full of scary moments. Life with health issues is especially scary at times. Each person struggles with different fears and different aspects of diseases, but there is always a recurrent line of fear.

For me, there is the fear of difficult pregnancies. I would absolutely love to have my own biological children, but there is a part of me that knows that might not be possible. Not only am I high risk from the diabetes, but PCOS makes pregnancy an often far-fetched and difficult event.

I'm afraid that I won't have a full term pregnancy. I'm afraid that I'll struggle to get pregnant in the first place. I'm afraid that I'll do something wrong or something even out of my control to hurt my baby. I'm afraid that I won't have the option to decide my own birth plan.

There's also the part of me that fears for my future children and their own health. I know the one thing that would completely break me would be to have a diabetic child of my own. To fear that I had caused it, that it was genetically my fault, that I didn't pick the best option.

Parts of me fear the complications that arise from either diabetes or PCOS...or both. I fear my kidneys failing. I fear a sudden stroke or heart attack that leaves me unable to speak, move, or breathe. I fear an infection that just won't go away. Or the risk of gynecological cancers that come with PCOS, early menopause, or a forced hysterectomy.

Unfortunately, there are the all too daily fears that come from living with chronic conditions. A bad night low that leads to a coma. A high that I don't catch soon enough. Living constantly in pain or dealing with constant mood issues.

So many fears run through my mind on a daily basis, often when I don't even realize it. They are conscious and subconscious efforts to maintain my health...reminding me that I have to pay attention, that I have to work hard at this, that I can't give up now. Fears that can easily consume me if I don't make a point to stop them from getting the best of me.

It's different for all of us. Each human has different issues and needs that raise insecurities and fears. But as diabetics and as chronic care patients, we all struggle to fight these bigger fears. The ones of life and death, of healthy and happy, of whole and broken.

And each day we overcome those fears and keep pushing through is another day that we deserve a pat on the back, a shoulder rub, or a nice cup of tea. Not only do we fight the physical battle of this disease, but we are daily fighting the emotional one that can be so much more overwhelming than the physiology.