It's quite possibly one of the worst things I go through as a diabetic: the ongoing debate between the rational and irrational sides of my brain. I can't tell you how many times I've tried to push the thought out of my head to buy candy or junk food only to have my irrational side drive me to the nearest convenience store.

I've never been hypnotized, although my junior high friends and I all tried to hypnotize each other during sleep overs, but I'm starting to seriously consider it lately as a way to modify my eating habits. I mean, if people use it to stop smoking and women can use it for childbirth and dentists use it for patients who are fearful of getting a cavity filled, then why can't I use it to get me to stop eating junk?

Yes, I've tried using my kids, my husband, my life expectancy and my quality of life when I'm 50 as motivation. It doesn't work. I thought Byetta would work, and while it has decreased my appetite, I still crave candy and junk food. And I often feel like crying-no, sobbing uncontrollably-when I think about eating candy. Gee, do you think I have an unhealthy relationship with food?

This is extreme, and I realize that, but there are times when I think about hypnosis taking away all pleasure from food, making all foods taste terrible to the point where I can't fathom the thought of eating. So, yeah, I know that's not healthy. What I really want is power. The power to keep myself away from the junk and the carb-loaded foods. And, yes, I think it would be great if hypnosis made some of my favorite junky foods taste like cat litter.