Have you seen the movie The Green Mile? OK, if not, what are you waiting for? It's a fantastic movie. Anyway, if you haven't seen it I won't ruin anything by asking this: remember the part where Michael Clarke Duncan spits out the bee-looking things? OK, keep that image in your mind. Sort of.

I identify myself as a writer. And editor. Mostly lately I consider myself more of an editor because I'm not doing much writing for myself. Which is kind of sad to me since I know I'm a great writer, people keep telling me I'm a great writer, and damnit one of my college professors told me I had a novel "very close to the surface."

I'm the kind of writer/journalist who feels like I need to have a good first sentence/paragraph before I can really get the story going. I've sat countless times looking at a blank screen or struggling through a story because I either hadn't yet thought of the greatest first sentence or because I had written one that wasn't right.

This is also why I have yet to write The Great American Novel. Simply can't think of the perfect first sentence. OK not really; it's more than that but you get the idea.

I feel like I write best when it just pours out of me and I seem to have no control over my fingers on the keyboard. Much like Michael Clarke Duncan in The Green Mile. When he tried to hold it in it made him weak.

So anyway, I've been trying to push myself lately to go out of my comfort zone. Trying to push myself to just write already. Just get something down on the screen. Just freaking do it, Michelle!

It's hard. And this is such a cheesy way to bring this post around to diabetes, but I see blood sugar management the same way. It's hard. Damn hard. I know I need to push myself more when it comes to blood sugar management. I know I need to get out of my comfort zone. I just need to write that first sentence.