My blood sugars seem to have a mind of their own (more than normal) these past few days. I'm bouncing all over the place, doubting my meter's accuracy, and questioning my own ability to manage this stupid disease. I can't seem to stabilize and insulin doesn't seem to be working the way it needs to. Worst of all, I think it's really wreaking havoc on my body as my fatigue has increased and I'm waking up with sore throats.

Last week I noticed a few bouncing numbers, but nothing out of the ordinary. I'd been running high trying to get my insulin stabilized and figure out my problem areas. I'd also been snacking too much before bedtime for fear of lows since I was going to sleep with numbers like 104 and 111. Those left my morning numbers high setting my days off on the wrong diabetes foot.

But since Sunday, I've noticed something different. After a semi-large breakfast at my dad's house on Sunday morning, my blood sugar soared to 245. I wasn't all that alarmed, but I did a few more units of Humalog to be on the safe side. Yet by four in the afternoon, my blood sugar soared to 337 without much explanation (not the kind of breakfast that should linger that long). The rest of the day seemed to have me bouncing around going from 211 to 140 to 249 without eating much.

Monday and Tuesday were the same deal, except even stranger. An extra intense workout left me at 87. One juice box later, I was 224 (still not that alarming considering it included anaerobic exercise that might hit later). According to doctor's orders though, I wasn't supposed to bolus for that blood sugar. So I didn't. And with a bit of a stomachache, I drank a few ounces of regular Sprite. But at 2:40am, I woke up to a 53.

I'm terrible about overtreating night lows, but this one I'd almost bet money on that I didn't overtreat by that much. Yet Tuesday morning, I woke up at 315 with all the symptoms of a ketonic high. And no amount of insulin brought me down until about seven hours later when dropped to 75. I bounced around for the rest of the day going from the 75 to 203 to an after-dinner 206 ending up at 92 an hour later.

If that wasn't bad enough, I shot up to 326 (second test with my meter said 293) before bed. I did 2 units of Humalog which brought me to 178 at 5am. I figured I'd wake up this morning with a 185 or lower. Much to my surprise, I saw 259 blink at me on my meter screen.

I honestly have no idea what is going on. I'm not eating abnormally (minus the big breakfast on Sunday). My workouts are the same if not increased. And I haven't done anything with my insulin.

Tonight, I'm raising my night Lantus dose to 15 units instead of 13, hoping these highs will stop kicking me in the morning (when I'm supposed to be heading to class, I'm curled up in my bed fighting off the groggy, nauseous feeling of the high). I'm also considering trying that lowered carb ratio my doctor recommended for "that time of the month" since I'm two weeks away. If I do that, I'm back carrying the pump around since it's not an even ratio and I don't want to mess things up.

If it's none of those, I'm at a loss. Maybe it's going off the cortisol last month? Seems like that would have the opposite effect though. I've also taken less progesterone and had a lot of period trouble in the past two months, so maybe these are the slow ill effects from those hormones being all over the place? I really wish I knew because then it might be easier to fix or to ride out.

Until then, I guess I'll just have to play with my insulin and maybe workout a little more than normal to try to get all these highs under control. Never in my life have I felt like diabetes was more perplexing than these last few months, never in my life have I had such persistent highs with such negative effects. I guess diabetes has just decided to throw a new curve-ball at me to see if I'm still paying attention. Well guess what, diabetes?!? I AM!