Do you ever have that "D'oh! Why did I make such a big deal out of that" feeling/moment/day? That's kind of what I've been going through lately.

I feel really terrible saying this, but I think I'm doing OK without Dex. Which is kind of weird to me considering the amount of energy I put into getting my insurance company to approve the sensors.

I think one reason I fought so hard to get the sensors is because I had just started exercising again and I was (still am!) terrified of going low while walking. In the last twoish months since I started walking I haven't had any blood-sugar-related issues.

Well, I take that back. I'm always high about an hour after my walk. Doesn't matter if I have or haven't eaten before my walk. Let's say I was 120 pre-walk and didn't eat anything, went for my walk and post walk was 78. I don't bolus in that situation even though I'm about to disconnect my pump to shower. I'm disconnected for about 20 minutes or so. And by the time I get downstairs again to eat breakfast I'm often higher than my pre-walk number.

The easy answer would be to check my sugar again after my shower and bolus if needed at that point. Dex would certain help to know when I start to shoot up.

But I digress a little. What I'm getting at is that for the most part I don't miss Dex. I really thought I would. And while I really hate the idea that Dex is collecting dust in a cabinet right now, I'm not making any great efforts to save more money so I can pay my 2009 deductible (i.e. pay for the sensors).

I don't miss the extra sensor on my belly and I don't miss the extra bulk on my waistband and making sure I have Dex within arm's reach at all times.

*sigh* But I do miss knowing my blood sugar at the push of a button.