craigpj

Back in October I had an appointment to see my endocrinologist. October was not a good month for me.

During that month I was packing up my house, and walking away from the only place my children knew as “home,” and was in a very deep funk.

I knew I was not eating right. No exercising. And my blood sugars had been crazy high because of ignoring all the stuff that helps.

I didn’t go. I totally ditched getting my a1c test drawn.

So, I ditched the appointment and the test. And I haven’t gone back.

I know, shame on me. I do this constantly. I get in a routine and go to my appointments, see specialists, and all the stuff I should do then I back off. I hide away and disappear for a few months.

Do any of you have a pattern like this? I try to analyze why I do this and maybe it’s a guilt thing. Like not wanting to face the music since I know I have not done what I was supposed to? Maybe it’s because I am tired and fed up and just hate to find out what diabetes is doing to my body.

I know a big part of it is not wanting to miss work. Not that I don’t want to necessarily but I get an attitude from my supervisor. It’s funny because the lady I work with who has heart problems and the one who has to get her kids to doctors now and then never see the ‘tude that I do.

I think she is one of those that thinks diabetes is no big deal. If she only knew right?

The real answer it seems should be “all of the above.”

Can you relate? Do you just skip out or ditch stuff you know you shouldn’t? And if not, PLEASE tell me how you stay on track because I just fail miserably.