Today was my Aunt Lisa's funeral.

It was a beautiful service that honored her and brought up lots of good memories. She will be missed but never forgotten.

One of the pluses that comes out of tragedy is the time you get to spend with your family. Sure, a funeral is never the event where you want to have a reunion. Weddings and birthday parties are much better but with my family, things are always good when we get together.

I spent most of the time visiting with my uncles, aunts and cousins. We talked about all the members of the family we have lost. Lots of tears and belly laughs could be heard throughout my uncles house.I was nice.

Of course with my family food is a major component of any gathering. There was shredded chicken, shredded beef, beans, rice, tortillas, chips, and even guacamole. I enjoyed a plate and even some dessert. My BG suffered for it but I didn't care. I didn't want to think about it and I did bolus for the extra carbs I thought.

I still ended up in the 300's a few hours later. It seems I can never get the extended bolusing like Square and Dual Wave (that is what they call it on the Minimed pump) down correctly. I always end up really high.

Ignoring my disease once in a while is probably not a horrible thing and frankly if I don't I am sure I will end up completely giving up on everything.

Those times I have dessert and just eat whatever I want make me feel more "normal."

I needed to feel that way today.