I'm going to fight. I want a CGMS and even though the universe may have spoken, I'm still going to fight. (Perhaps I misunderstood what the universe was saying.)

I put a lot of emphasis on thinking that the primary benefit of using a CGMS is to detect lows. There was a time when I had some pretty serious hypoglycemia unawareness. I remember taking a walk with the family once and not feeling low until we returned. I was 35. I didn't feel it until I was 35. That's scary stuff.

More lately I've been thinking that one of the better benefits of using a CGMS is to ward off highs either between meals or before the two-hour post-prandial check.

While those two reasons are pretty good ones, I think for me what I will really benefit from most is the ability to watch patterns and to have tighter control.

Let's face it, in an ideal world I'd be able to check my sugar two hours after every meal, eat a balanced diet at regular intervals and have perfect control. But with three kids who have extra curricular activities, a one-hour commute, freelance work and hobbies, sometimes that ideal world just isn't within grasp.

Thanks to soccer and flag football practice, there are days when I don't sit down for dinner until 8 or 9 p.m. Others I eat by 6 p.m. Some days I'm so busy that I sit down at the end of the day and realize I've only checked my sugar once or twice the whole day.

Life gets in the way of having ideal control. When I started on the pump people asked me what I liked about it; for me it was the precision of the pump over injections. Having a CGMS will complement my pump offering me the tightest control I can have without literally checking my sugar every 10 minutes. Learning how my body reacts to different foods, different activities and all of that at different times of the day will allow me to be as close to ideal control as possible.

Because it's about diabetes fitting into my life, not squeezing my life into diabetes.

I'm going to fight.