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November 21st, 2008
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In two weeks I have my next endo appointment scheduled and I am already nervous.


I am eating like it is going out of style and my increase of mass is proof positive! At work I am constantly munching on anything I can get my hands on and continue with it when I get home! I feel like I will never get back on track with Weight Watchers. I feel so far gone.


And because of all the poor food choices my blood sugars have paid the price. I keep running high all day to only crash in the middle of the night. I feel out of wack and completely out of control.


So now I have to face the music with my endocrinologist and frankly I don’t want to.


I want to ditch.


It is silly that I think this way. I want to ditch diabetes every day and I know I cannot. Taking a break from this stupid disease would be awesome! But that won’t happen and frankly if I don’t go and face the music then I could allow diabetes to take up even more of my time if I have complications.


So I guess it is settled. I will just have to listen to my doctor say, “You have to eat better. Lose weight. Get your a1c down!”


Maybe I will finally do it for good.



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I think every ENDO out there understands when a patient just looses it. I am in that right now and I blame it on having to be on predinzone for 3 weeks to get my asthma under control. That was 2 1/2 months ago. I am still looking for that triger that will put me back on the straight and narrow.


Hi, my name is Sarah and I have been where you are right now. I almost died too. I had a pancres transplant that lasted three years. I am a type 1 again and a bit smarter this time around. It seems as though you are in a cirle and do not know what to do. I needed to get on anti depressants and it helped me, PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, THERE IS ONLY ONE OF YOU!!!


I am in the same place you are right now.
I just cant seem to stay away from potato chips
chips or rice crispie squares. I crash every
afternoon from eating the wrong foods. It is a daily challenge for me, I always say tommorrow I will choose better. But I never do.


I know how you feel. I'm not sure that I have completely come to terms with the fact that I have been diagnosed with Type 2 (and I feel guilty about it -- it's all my fault - even though my mom and all of her family and my bio father and all his siblings (all 11 of them) were diabetic). It's different that being on Weight Watchers and cheating . . . here, I feel anytime I go "off track" they'll be able to tell by my blood tests. Should I exercise, absolutely, but I work full time, take oversight care of a brother who is a quadriplegic, have kids, an elderly stepfather who I also take care of some evenings (and I do have a husband who would like to see me once in a while) . . . there's no time. I'm also still grieving for my mother who died a few months ago. And food makes me feel better. I try to make better choices than I use to, but until I can work exercise in, I won't be able to lose weight. It's easy during the day to make good choices, it's at night when I'm sad and feelig sorry for myself.

I'm not on medication yet and my blood sugar in the evening (before meals) is almost always below 130, but my a.m. tests are generally in the 130s/140s.

I'm not really asking for advice, I just don't have anyone I can share my experiences with because none of my friends are experiencing the same health issues, nor do I think they really understand. I do know I'm not alone out there and my biggest obstacle is evening "cheating". I try to be good, but when I do finally get home at night, I'm always looking to see what I can eat. I try not to keep bad stuff in the house but when you eat too much of anything, it's not good. And, honestly, sometimes I buy something that's not good and hide it from everyone so when all are asleep, I can get to it (pretty whacko).

It's nice to have this outlet . . . thanks for listening.


been there and still doing it.I try and I try to "be good" but fall short more times than not. I love to cook and I love eating,, the problem is I live alone and whatever I cook I eat! I am trying not to eat again after my dinner meal, however,,, I work perm.midnights and I get hungry,,,,,,
then I find I eat snack after snack, eating a full meal at 3 in the morning nauseates me so I graze on. does anyone have any helpful ideas? I truly know how difficult it is to be true to your "program" sometimes it is just plain HARD!


been there and still doing it.I try and I try to "be good" but fall short more times than not. I love to cook and I love eating,, the problem is I live alone and whatever I cook I eat! I am trying not to eat again after my dinner meal, however,,, I work perm.midnights and I get hungry,,,,,,
then I find I eat snack after snack, eating a full meal at 3 in the morning nauseates me so I graze on. does anyone have any helpful ideas? I truly know how difficult it is to be true to your "program" sometimes it is just plain HARD!


been there and still doing it.I try and I try to "be good" but fall short more times than not. I love to cook and I love eating,, the problem is I live alone and whatever I cook I eat! I am trying not to eat again after my dinner meal, however,,, I work perm.midnights and I get hungry,,,,,,
then I find I eat snack after snack, eating a full meal at 3 in the morning nauseates me so I graze on. does anyone have any helpful ideas? I truly know how difficult it is to be true to your "program" sometimes it is just plain HARD!


I can sure identify with everyone! I've found that sunflower seeds [in their shells] satisfy my "evening munchies" & don't raise my blood sugar.


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