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curious_spider
The past four days have been a real pain. I have no idea what my problem is, but I just can't seem to get my diabetes right. I had been going fine, doing everything correctly, testing like a mad woman, and getting great averages.
But something got a hold of me on Sunday night and hasn't let me go. I'm checking a lot still, but I'm seeing numbers like 180 or 220 instead of 100 or 120. I'm eating anything and everything I want. I'm not bolusing for snacks. I'm not calculating boluses correctly. Basically, I'm just slacking.
For the past few months, I've done everything really well. I feel like I made a lot of progress with diabetes emotionally and numerically. I got the books to help me get over the burnout. I got into the habit of checking and logging my blood sugar. I was actively using my pump.
Even when school started back up, I was checking and logging. I was trying to follow a reasonable diet. I was keeping up with my exercise. I was changing my pump to match my needs.
But somewhere in the last two weeks, I guess the burnout came back. Between all the hours of class I have, the projects I'm working on, and my jobs (yes, that's multiple!), I guess diabetes became too much of a hassle. I know diabetes is always a hassle, but sometimes I ignore that fact and just manage.
It's amazing how when other things in your life start slipping, your diabetes seems to slip as well. Like my sleep habits and my routine. I haven't quite figured out the best way to manage my schedule and I can't seem to sleep well in the last two weeks. In turn, that makes my food choices take a turn for the worst because I'm either too tired to find something healthy or constantly hungry so I just keep snacking.
Because my sleep and diet are off, my body feels sluggish (like before I started my bio-identical hormones). I'm more apt to put off exercise or going out because I just don't feel like doing much. My diet, sleep, and exercise are all off and I'm just sitting around doing nothing (except eating).
All of these factors have taken a turn for the worst on my blood sugars. I'm bouncing all over the place, forgetting boluses, and under/over correcting certain blood sugars. The crazy blood sugars and crazy insulin intake are making me even more sluggish. What an endless cycle!
I wouldn't say that I'm burned out on diabetes again. I wouldn't say I'm exhausted of it. I just feel like it's a tax on my life right now that I don't want to handle (denial?). Yet I hate seeing those numbers slowly rise.
Someone kick me into shape!
I have only been diabetic for a little over a year so I can't say that I have had total control for a long period of time. I finally got on a program of injections 4-times a day using an insulin to carb ratio and a certain amount of units at night for the long acting insulin. I have had bad times of course, I don't know of anyone who has not, but I do know that when I get "off track" I get right back "on track" so I don't do any damage that may cause future diseases. I think the long term effects of diabetes is my biggest fear. We are only human, we sill have bad days, even weeks, I think the best thing to do though is to get back on track asap. Of course this is just my opinion. :o)
Gee, is it funny or scary that I can relate so well that I am eating a piece of pizza for dinner while reading this. Burnout? Depression? Yeah, but it only lasts for a short period. When I feel like this I surround myself with things I love, Broadway and the internet, and eventually get on with it. I saw my mother go piece by piece and that motivated me not to make the same mistakes. We live in a better time and diet sodas aren't so bad anymore. I have been type 2 for about four years now, four shots a day plus 70 units of lantus. Don't ever give up hope. It will always get better, really.
I have been Type 2 for about 7 years. I have readingd int he 180 to 200 and I exercise at least 4 times a week. I do not know what do do anymore and I am not sure if I really care. I am tired of the pills the shots the readings. I do not feel physically bad so I am not sure what to do. I am in a diabetic program and I see a doctor regularly.
Good Lord....
Ive been a T1 for 38 years now. And, everyday? Is a food challenge for me....what I want...and what I actually eat? Are two completely different things. Every day..I have to NOT think about ice cream, pasta, bread, ranch dressing in globs, peanut butter by the jar full...
I could go on and on actually, but right now I can actually SMELL peanut butter...That is how STRONG my thoughts can be.....
God help me if I watch TV...I want EVERYTHING that they are selling....Only....and I mean Only...because I am on a diet and exercise and take care of my diabetes kick....
What I wouldnt do for Jalepeno pepper poppers right now???
Every single day....it is a choice for me. At the end of the day....I give myself a hug. for testing, for eating good, for going to the gym...for whatever. NO ONE else takes care of me? but me.
Here is the thing...Us T1's??? We KNOW what we have to do...and we KNOW that this is a disease that is controlled by your actions.
The last time I fell face first off the wagon? was for a solid week...ate what I wanted, didnt think about exercise, gave my shots, but didnt care what numbers popped up on the monitor...
I could be like that again tomorrow...maybe even later today....But Right now? I feel good...Im loosing weight...I know my A1C's are going to be awesome. God help me tomorrow. Cuz right now Im still smelling peanut butter!!!!