I'm not sure I'm ready to admit to this. In the real world, I haven't told any more than a few very close girl friends. And if my mother asks, I will certainly deny it. I'm fairly confident that she doesn't read my blog, and the admission I'm about to make is central to my diabetes life, so I might as well come out with it.

My husband and I are talking about having another kid. I know I was the most miserable pregnant woman in the world and I swore never, never again. But it is a woman's perogotive to change her mind, isn't it?

When we first started talking about trying for #2, I thought we were going to wait a year. Give me the opportunity to shed the rest of the baby weight and have a year to enjoy being a threesome. But my husband suggested we aren't getting any younger, and wouldn't it be nice to have two close in age. So, we've agreed to start trying this fall.

That gives me about six more weeks to get mentally and physically prepared for this. Good thing I started caring about my blood sugar again last month. I'm pleased to report while my blood sugar has been far from perfect, I did succeed in testing at least four times a day for most of July. And now that I'm in the groove, I'm testing before and after all meals and exercise. I'm even writing it in a notebook.

Mentally, I'm getting there too. I'm trying to remember that every pregnancy is different and while I was miserable last time around that may not be the case next time. And one of my friends pointed out that it goes faster the second time around. Like when you drive someplace new. The first time takes forever and the second time goes even faster. I hope that's true!

Next pregnancy, I'm also planning on having a different care team. Last time, I was in a group practice. It bothered me because they never seemed to know who I was and I saw a different doctor (seven in all) each visit. Next time, I'll see a solo practitioner for more individualized care. I'd also had enough of my endocrinologist earlier this year. I'm replacing him as well. My Maternal Fetal Medicine specialist and dietian are remaining on my team.

Another change I plan to make is going on a pump instead of multiple daily injections, and looking into continuous glucose monitoring for the duration of the pregnancy. I've already started back on insulin (I refilled my old prescription) and stopped taking my oral diabetes medication. I'm glad I had a break from insulin for a while, but now that I'm back on it, it isn't so bad. I'm still trying to figure out how much I need at different times of day, but all in all, it's going well.

So wish us luck, and don't tell my mom!!