kchaloner

Because I've gotten so off track in the last month or two, I've decided to take measures towards better control. I'm sick of watching my numbers climb higher than Everest and struggle to make the plunge back down. My 30 day average is 156, but my 15 day average is 176. So obviously I've lost my control.

This month has been hard physically. I've put my work out plan to good use, hitting the gym at least two times a week and walking the neighborhood at least two times as well. I also started the diet. Then summer school started.

After that, it was an emotional rollercoaster. I've barely had time for myself between everything I'm working on right now. I've been stressed, sick, and sleep deprived. My life has turned upside down making the transition from spring semester to summer. (I know, summer should be easier, but it's not for me because I pick up a third job during the summer as well as take classes and plug in family time that I miss out on during the normal school year.)

But I refuse to let the next month be as out of control as this one. I do NOT want another 7.3 A1c, but at this rate it's going to be even higher. So I need to shift into overtime on the diabetes management side.

I've added some tools to my belt that I'm hoping will help. With these modern times, I love that we can get added information and support from the craziest places. First, I've stringently followed Kerri's blog for the past week. Just reading another young woman's perspective (and such a great one at that!) is helping. To know I'm not alone in this.

Second, I've ordered some books. I already have the Pumping Insulin book (which I plan to read again this weekend), but now I've ordered three new ones. Diabetes Burnout (Polonsky), Life Disrupted (Edwards), and Psyching Out Diabetes (Rubin) are now on their way to my house. I'm hoping that hearing these new perspectives and getting those tidbits of advice will push me back into diabetes motion.

The last thing I'm doing is to try to stay away from all things diabetes. I'm keeping up with my daily necessities, of course, like testing, insulin, blogging, and Diabetes Teen Talk. But otherwise, I'm trying to get away from the obsessive thoughts that diabetes gives me. I'm staying out of the social networks for the time being, staying away from other diabetics, and tricking my own mind into thinking this isn't so bad. (Kerri's blog is the exception to this rule.) I just find that often I get so overwhelmed with these things that I put my own diabetes emotions to the side.

So it's time to face my own diabetes head on. It's time to get my averages back down. It's time for change (a constant thing in this diabetes rollercoaster).