Diabetic Recipes
Ugh.
That is the perfect one word description of my diabetes management these days. I am off the rails. I am not on track. I am completely (or so it seems) - out of control. I see highs, I see lows, I see some in-range sugars - but mostly - not.
Today, for example. 68 mg/dl this morning. No breakfast, because I was too busy, just some Fuse Banana Colada juice. 119 mg/dl at around noon time. Salad. No test until 4pm. 4pm. And I've tested two times today. Then I'm 200 mg/dl... So what do I do? I have a carb heavy dinner and some ice cream. I am 236 mg/dl at 6:30 pm. I am 175 mg/dl now. Terrible. Terrible. Terrible. And not rare these days.
I haven't been to the gym at all this week. Work activities. Home searches... Other stuff that's - distracting.
I want my life to be my life. I want my life to be less complicated. I don't want to do this anymore. And it's showing. I am getting lax. And I can't afford to.
But today, it's been 26 years. That's a long time. More than a quarter of a century. And although I'm proud of myself for having lived this long - and well - with diabetes. I am tired... And I know it's showing.
In my level of control. In my writing about diabetes. In my interactions with others. In every little bit of my life.
I need it to not be this way. But that's impossible. And boy, does that suck.
I totally agree, Nicole! It sucks! I've been doing this for 15 years and 4 months and I'm burnt out. I'm not looking forward to the next 10 years and 8 months with this disease. Though, like you, I will be glad to have lived that long with diabetes...but it will be bittersweet.
I hear you loud and clear. I'm fighting through a rough patch myself. Sorry I don't have any wise words of wisdom to share...
I understand completely! I have been doing this for 17 yrs; and feel so guilty since I have 2 children. But I get so tired of every decision having such huge consequences.
NIICOLE: I FEEL YA, GIRL!!!:I have had type 1 for 41 years and for the past three or four weeks,I am going through a rough patch of swinging from Hi to Low and back again almost everyday. I know that for me, I need to reset my basals and insulin senstitivity, as I have lost weight ( due to a very stressful job, some skipped meals,it was NOT deliberate)
I also need to take the time to TAKE CARE OF ME. IT IS SO EASY TO GET DIABETIC BURNOUT.:
Resetting basal levels, carb ratios , and insulin sentsitivity, is not easy or quick: you have write down everythinG, PLUS t get up at three in the morning FOR AT LEAST 3-5 NIGHTS. TESTING, TESTING, TESTING IS TEDIOUS.
Managing diabetes would not be so hard if it was the ONLY thing we had to do all day. But most of us have lives that include family, friends, working, and a multitude of other activities and interests. Sometimes it feels OVERWHELMING to work if all in....
But I can try and take it one day at a time. I am not going to throw in the towel. I will take things off my schedule that can wait.Other people and my own nit-pickiness seem to demand all the time and attention. However,No one can, or will, take care of my diabetes but me, so I have to put my health first, and Thank God that HE has my back. I will test more and get one basal rate set in two-three days, then wait until another week to reset the next. If I do ithem all at one by one sequentially,,I will get burned out and not complete any of it. :I know me!!
Just take it slowly, Nicole,and don't despair... THIS TOO, SHALL PASS
I understand the borderline control. How's your A1c's? When I had had the bid D for 29 years and had been on MDI I saw my first floater while with my two young children and my wife while at Disney.(That'll kill a day at Disney--the other big D)
At that point I went to the retina specialist, was diagnosed with diabetic retinopathy and had laser surgery. I went right to my endocrinologist and said I want a pump, and decided to go agressive in my control. 15 years later now, and I still see the retina doctor, but my eye is stable with no vision loss. I am on a CGMS and do my best to stay in range. None of us are bulletproof and control gives you a much healthier, longer, less complicated (kidney, foot, eye, damage)Life.
I wish you the best and encourage you to step it up. After 44 years of D, I am healthy and hopeful.
Keep Going...........Peace, Bob
There is doubt about it...some days sux. I went through a rough patch last year. I also encourage you to start today, do what you know to do, as quickly as you can. And tomorrow step it up. Bob is so right...this will give you a healthier, longer, less complicated life. It really helps me to know that there are people here who 'really' know what it is like to live with diabetes. We're all in this little D-boat together...Be well!
Man do I understand you guys. I have had IT for 33 years or more, who knows how long you have it before a doctor fines IT. I am really having a hard time right now. I recently lost my job and with diabetic retinopathy, sugars out of control and we all no how that can make you feel, a few things going on with the heart and lungs I decided to try to live on my husbands disability check alone. We are doing it but with me not having insurance of any kind it's a struggle to buy med's. My A1-C is like 8.9 I shoot maybe 4 to 5 times a day. Guess I didn't want to give anyone advice just needed to vent. D does suck mona i.l.